Too Much and Not Enough

Today officially marks the day that I have run out of the “I am happy for you” emotion. I absolutely cannot be happy for people and their accomplishments, their blessings and their progress in life for one more minute. I have been the supportive friend and the cheerleader for other people and their lives and I am pretty much on empty now.

This Sums Up the Problem with Society

At least Mr. Black Murano has the balls to say it.

First Days of Vacation

Fog City

Life in the Ghetto

Why do people feel the need to get louder and louder when they are congregating with friends? My neighbors had some guests tonight. Over the course of an hour and I am assuming with a couple of drinks or two…their conversation could practically be felt it was so loud. What started out as a dull roar had one hour into the gathering become an obnoxiously loud and raucous party. This entails a whole lot of cackling, clapping, hooting and hollering.

It’s almost like they have this unspoken understanding:

The one who is the loudest is the one having the most fun.

My take?

Stupid. Asses.

Season change please!

I am tired of summer. As mild as this summer has been for the most part…I long for shorter days, a blanket of fallen leaves on the ground and the smell of the cool morning mist in the air. Autumn is my favorite time of the year. The vibrant color of the trees as they prepare for winter is such a sight to behold. One of these days I will visit New England or somewhere on the East coast where pictures are taken of acres and acres of trees full of bright orange, gold and red leaves. Unfortunately, not this year though.

Not Always Pretty on the Inside

Emotions are Not Always Pretty. I am the first to admit that I don’t take kindly to change. That is unfortunate as the world and everything in it is continually changing. I somewhere along the line became quite resistant to change and that has been detrimental to my well being. It’s hard to move onto the unknown that is coupled with change most times. Living in fear of the unknown has kept my mentally, and physically in a place that isn’t healthy.

Also, I have found that I have been plagued by feelings of indecisiveness for a long time. Something as simple as ordering off a menu can be a time consuming process. I think that these emotions are probably indicative of deeper issues. I am hoping with some self-realization and introspection I can determine where these emotions stem from. Perhaps some therapy is in order…or maybe just copious amounts of anti-psychotics.

I hope that I experience a metamorphous. I hope that my life for the last several years has been me…in a cocoon healing and learning from the trauma that occurred in my life and past mistakes. I think that I have a better idea of what I want to accomplish, and the person that I want to be. Now, just bring those thoughts and ideas to fruition…